if heath should truly be alive.....

as I live and breath and write this blog about the brief fling between me and Heath if he should so be still alive, like yeah he may very well have faked his death he may try to sue me about this tattling on him. But so be it. Just the same, it would mean he would make his fans very angry and upset that he did to them what he did.


Are you angry he died or faked his own death?

I truly would love to hear from you and your feelings on him and the sad ending to his driftless and alleged drug -induced lifestyle. 

I walk away from Heath never to return some fruitful and empassioned day......

how real is fact or fiction when you meet the man of your dreams a movie idol cast and set into stone up on the silver screen, that it seems too sci-fi fantastic that you, little old you would ever be that special to meet up and fuck up with the real true Casanova of our times, Heathcliff Andrew Ledger.

Now all I have is of a memory I need to delete as to his unfaithfullness and his form of power and abuse, so be it if I go alone and without him......

did heath expect to take the fall....

maybe even before our chance encounter Heath being a new father had decided on a course to chart his destiny upon and maybe faking his death could have been a viable option for him. He could get away from the high cost of fortune and fame and the unbearable doldrums he became engulfed in.

a new dawn

and a new day and he hates me now and he is alive and well living and sometimes visitng the small city I now reside in. "She hates me now! She won't fuck me no more!"

well heathen honey if thats all i have been to u well adios, so long and saynora. I want more than a sex partner and at my age have not liked men or their abusive nature.
I stand as a solo gypsy laying my fruits upon the soil and gardening in my best way. I am a loner by birth right and by my own need to be safe, snug and sound. Men, heath are just nothing but a danger to me and thee and I do  so desire much more than a lay job in the bed routine once-in-a-great-while with anyone and that goes for Someone as stuck up and ego oleo over the head Known as a-list actor heath Ledger.

a day sleeper, that's me....

i have a tendency to fall asleep early in the morning or very late @ night. Being a part time writer and an astronomer doesn't leave much space for a normal early to bed early to rise lifestyle so I tend to sleep in some days. Especially if the day before had been hectic or I lost sleep.

I was asleep and unawares of JimLo intent on bringing Heath to my small 19 by 20 apartment in Drexel Hill PA.
But when I awoke to see Jim in my room and me still in bed and a handsome likeness to Heath Ledger standing over me like a vision of delight, I most assuredly did feel as if I were lost in a dream.

JimLo said to me that day,,,"Naomi, heres your honey..."

over 4 years ago

is when Heath and I set up a sexual spiral of downward flow. His body taut and thin and soft and oh so melting into mine---a dream more or less. No. That's exactly how it began. Like a dream.

extreme sexy hot toddy me up!

in all my born days I never knew I would be introduced to an actor of Heath Ledger's caliber and that I would as I was almost asleep at the wheel allowed him to be given my apartment key in order for him to visit whenever he'd care to.

I just didn't think that sex was the name of the game or that me being so much older that he would even have a fancy to kiss me least of all to make such soft and sweet music to my inner soul as well as my body.
But Heath Ledger and I were not meant to be.